modernYOU

You have my heart and we will never be world`s apart. Nothing will never come between us. There`s no distance in between our love.

When the sun shines-we`ll shine together.

There are many things in life that I have learned, but there is only one thing that I am completely sure about and that is that I love you. No one is perfect on this earth and we have learned that. You have taught me a lot-- what it means to forgive and be forgiven.

Only you can take over my heart the way you do. Only you can make my heart melt with your smile. Only you can make my heart smile with your words. And only you can make my heart skip a beat with your love. We don`t know what the future may hold for us but one thing is for certain... I will always love you.

"Moiii, Today I will be able to sleep in peace because I know that my heart is with someone safe. I will be able to sleep in peace because I know that tomorrow I will awaken with happiness. I will be able to sleep because I know God loves me because he has sent me such a beautiful blessing.... to be able to love you more and more with everyday that passes. Moiii, my nino lindo, I adore you with all of me... i love you with all my might. Don't you ever forget that. I love you today and forever, Celi."

If I know what love is, it is because of you.

I love you, not only for what you are, but what I am with you.

Many people may judge me or the choices that I make and frankly, I am and will be the only one that knows why I do the things I do. And I do the things I do for me and no one else. Even if those decisions aren`t the best ones- they`re mine. No one is perfect. Especially when it comes to love.

Tienes mi corazón y nosotros nunca seremos mundos aparte. Nada nunca vendrá entre nosotros. No hay distancia en medio de nuestro amor.

Cuando el sol brilla brillaremos juntos.

Hay muchas cosas en la vida que he aprendido, pero hay sólo una cosa que estoy completamente segura acerca de y eso es que te amoo. Nadien es perfecto en este mundo y nosotros hemos aprendido eso. Tu me has enseñado mucho -- lo que significa perdonar y ser perdonado.

Sólo tu puedes tomar mi corazón la manera que tu lo haces. Sólo tu puedes hacer mi corazón que se funde con tu sonrisa. Sólo tu puedes hacer mi corazón sonreir con tus palabras. Y sólo tu puedes hacer mi corazón perder un palpito con tu amor. Nosotros no sabemos lo que el futuro puede tener para nosotros pero una cosa es con toda seguridad... Yo siempre te adoraré.

"Moiii, Hoy podre dormir en paz por que se que mi corazon esta con alguen seguro. Podre dormir por que se que manana amanecere con felizidad, podre dormir por que se que Dios me ama por que me a mandado una bendicion tan bella... poder amarte mas y mas con los dias que pasan. Moiii, mi nino lindo, te adoro con todo mi ser... te amo con toda mi fuerza. Que nunca se te olvide. Te amo hoy y siempre, Celi."

Si sé qué es amor, es a causa tuya.

Te quiero, no sólo para lo que eres, pero lo que soy yo contigo.

Muchas personas me pueden juzgar o las elecciones que hago y francamente, soy y seré el único que sabe por qué yo hago las cosas que hago. Y hago las cosas que hago para mí y para nadie más. Incluso si esas decisiones no sean los mejor- todas maneras son mias. Nadie es perfecto. Especialmente en el amor.

-Celi.

modernME 2

Falling out of love is hard. Falling for betrayal is worst. Broken trust and broken hearts.Thinking all you need is there, building faith on love is worst. Empty promises will wear...

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together... ---and this ladies & gentlemen, is what I choose to live by.

Everything does happen for a reason. There was a reason I met you on that joyous day. There was a reason I fell in love with your smile. And there was a reason why I believed the words "I love you". It will simply take time for me to completely understand WHY. I'd like to think that it was a blessing from God. I mean most people live their lives never knowing what love is. It might have been a "low-budget" kind of love but it was love or as some may have also seen it as "young" love but it was love. And I am fortunate to have had that.

People change so that you can learn to let go. Otherwise most of us ladies would still be lingering around the men that are bad for us. Change is not always bad. Though you changed for the worst-it was best for me. Through your change, I realized that I deserved better. If it wasn't for the change I would have been stuck with you on a road that was filled with betrayal.

Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. Though our relationship did not work out, I know in the back of my mind that God has something planned for me. Whether it is bigger or better or not, my faith is what keeps me strong and if that day comes I will appreciate it with all my heart. Sadly, thanks to you, I know now how it feels to be betrayed and cheated on... an experience that will help me prosper in future relationships-and maybe that's how I'll appreciate it...when it's right (in other words-not you).

You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. Though this may seem like a logical thing to do it's not always the best thing to do. Blocking everyone from your trust is never the answer. I refuse to cease trusting people because I was betrayed by YOU (as in ONE person). That only proved to me that my secret password to my heart should simply be a little bit stronger next time. I believed your lies and I do admit that for a second I did not trust anyone but myself but then I realized that if I let you have that type of control over me-I would have let you win and I refuse to let you have the ball on MY court.

Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. We fell apart. And we continue to fall further and further apart. But instead of falling asleep countless nights with tears in my eyes, I chose to pray. I pray that one day I will find someone that will value/cherish me as much as I cherish them.

I love you Geuny. And you will forever be that one love, my Moiiii, but I LOVE MYSELF MORE. And that's why I let you go. Sure, it was hard for me but I know it was the right thing to do. And that is how that chapter concludes.

Today, I actually caught an episode of The Maury Show and it made me sad to see all these females turning to Maury for help. They want him to help them figure out whether or not their boyfriends are cheating on them... Ummm, excuse me- I can't seem to comprehend why two people would choose to be in a "relationship" if there is no love or some kind of feeling just like it. I mean girl, if you found panties (not in your size) that are not yours in your bedroom- would you call that love? I think not. And it's so sad to see what society has made "love" or "relationships" to be. People now a days get together for the hook up. Most aren't really out there for their search of true love--and that's actually what a relationship should be about... looking for that person you simply can't live with out. I don't know, it may sound "old fashioned" but that's just what I think.

Another day, another lesson learned.

-Celi

modernME 1

Modern: adjective- of or pertaining to present and recent time; not ancient or remote
noun- a person of modern times

LATE>PRESENT>RECENT-- My thoughts are recent developments and I would like to jot them down as they come.

I would like to start off by thanking Ms. Courtney Williams for inspiring me to express myself. She is such an amazing person with such a beautiful spirit. Though we had spent time together with the girls before, nothing compared to the movie/dinner night we had last weekend. I never thought I would meet someone who would come close to understanding what I have been through these past months--sure enough I did. We shared the same story at different levels. Not only that, I also had my very first Cosmo that night and completely fell in love.

I realized many things that day--
1. Loving myself above my friends means more than simply "saying" it--it's a necessary action
2. I really need to get back in touch with my "girly" self--NOT for the guys but for myself
3. He does NOT deserve me--most people don't.
***And I am not being conceded I am simply being honest. I am probably one of the nicest person you will ever meet and many tend to take advantage of my good intentions-EVEN the one labeled "Best Friend"
4. I am an extremely blessed person-- everything I've lived, seen, and have.

As I finish off my third year at the university, I sit back and acknowledge all of the lessons learned. In these last three years I have lived through things I would not wish upon my worst enemy (if I had one). But I refuse to linger in the past and instead chose to enjoy the present--after all, the past is what got me here and today is what will guide me to the future. So as I embark in this BLOGGING journey-- I take with me the lessons learned to help influence my thoughts and everything I learned today to help me make better choices in the future.

- Celi

NOTE: This is my first blog ever. Your OPINION (noun- a personal view) is appreciated.